You Want Me To Do WHAT In That Cup?!

Hai y’all!  Hope everyone is having a great week so far.  Warning, this post is going to be dealing with vagina’s and periods and if you don’t wanna know about that you should probably turn around and go the other way about now!  Got a morbid curiosity?  Great!  Stick around!

Today was a big day in the fertility journey.  We started out with our appointments with the fertility doc.  Hubby was up first (hahahaha no pun intended, seriously!) with his ‘deposit’ for the semen analysis.  Obviously he went back on his own and did his thing while I waited for my appointment for my ultrasound.  They called me back only a few minutes after he went back.  I have had a vaginal ultrasound before so I knew what to expect, but honestly this time it was a little uncomfortable when he was moving it around up in there and I don’t know exactly why.  He did show me my ovaries and all the cysts on them, so it was clear to him that I do in fact have PCOS.  He also showed me the huge lining that has built up in my uterus since I haven’t had a period in 3 months.  This is totally normal for patients with PCOS to go months at a time without periods.

After the ultrasound was over, the doctor told me that he would be doing a biopsy next to determine if there are any cancerous cells in the uterine lining.  Patients with PCOS have a higher rate of uterine cancer because the lining doesn’t get shed monthly like in patients who have normal cycles.  So before we can go any further in this process of trying to get pregnant he has to make sure I’m healthy and don’t have any cancer or pre-cancerous cells up in my biznass!

So once I was allowed to get dressed again, I met back up with Hubby and the doctors nurse to go over the next step.  First up was a blood pregnancy test to make sure I’m not pregnant now before the biopsy.  Obviously, they won’t do a biopsy if I am pregnant already, but hello, if I am already pregnant why in the hell would I be needing to go to an RE to begin with?!  So right after the ultrasound they took some blood for the pg test.  Then we scheduled my biopsy for next week.  Then we talked about how we are not allowed to have S.E.X. until 48 hours AFTER the biopsy.  Fun times.

After that was over we made our way over to the lab so I could get 6 more vials of blood taken for all the other blood work the Doc had ordered.  Lord.  I was like really?  Do I get to keep any of my blood, at all?  I walked out of there with bandages on both arms looking like a drug addict with tons of track marks.  Ok, not really but I did have both arms bandaged from them sticking me in each arm to get all the blood they needed.  I was worn out, and I hadn’t eaten since dinner last night because I needed to be fasting for the labs today.  So I made hubby take me out to Carolina’s (mexican) for lunch.  It is like the best mexican food in Phoenix! haha

It was an emotional day with these appointments, but we are moving in the right direction.  I gotta say I will be super happy when I am done with the testing and get some answers.  I obviously am hopeful that the only problem they will find is the PCOS/weight issue.  But if they do find something else wrong with either one of us we will deal with it and even if we don’t ever have another baby, we are doing things that will ultimately be good for us health wise and that is the most important thing.

So that’s it for this week’s tests!  Amen and hallelujaz!

Kindly Remove Your ‘wand’ from my Girly Bits, Thanks!

It’s time for the next step in our new journey to have baby #2.  If you haven’t read the first couple of novels about this you can see here and here …go ahead, I’ll wait………..ok so you read them and you’re back now right?!  Good.

So, last week at my first appointment the RE pretty much guaranteed that I have PCOS (PolyCystic Ovarian Syndrome) so to confirm that diagnosis I have to undergo a bit of testing.  First step being a crap ton of blood work. Yeah, I love being a human pin-cushion!  Yay!  I have a history of being hard to get a good vein for blood draws so hopefully they know what they are doing and don’t have to poke me too many times.  The second and uber fun test is a vaginal ultrasound.  Yeah, that’s fun.  Basically they need to view my ovaries to see size, shape and if there are cysts on them and the best way to do that is through the vaginal ultrasound.

While I am getting poked and prodded by something akin to one of E.T.’s fingers, my wonderful hubby will be doing his part by making a ‘deposit’ for a semen analysis.  bahahahahahah yes I am an immature woman who wants to die laughing every time I think about what hubby has to do in this whole process.  It’s the least he can do, after all I have to do every other damn thing.

Once the ultrasound, blood work and semen analysis are done, we can move on to the medications.  For me that will mean Metformin to treat the PCOS.  The hope is that the PCOS will be easy to treat with diet, exercise and medication and that will cause my body to start regulating itself which will also help me to lose the 30-40 lbs the doctor has said I need to drop before the fertility meds in a couple of months.

I’m hoping that by documenting my journey through all of this that I will be able to process my feelings easier so I’m not keeping things bottled up and not dealing with them.  I hope you will humor me as I go through this journey and please, if anyone has been through this and has some words of advice please share if you can!

March Sponsor Swaps!

Can you believe we are already talking about March?! Wow, this year is flying by!!

I am going to do sponsorship swaps again this month, if you are interested here are the deets:

We swap a button, I put your button on my sidebar under ‘sponsors’ and you would do the same on your blog with my button…oh yeah, I should probably create a new button now that I’m on WP and not Blogger anymore =)

I will Tweet about my sponsors on every ‘FF’ – follow Friday and a few other random times through the month and ask that you would do the same

I will post on Facebook about my lovely sponsors at least once per week

You have the option of doing a guest post, giveaway or promoting your Etsy or other store during my ‘Sponsor Highlight’ posts that feature you, my fantastic readers who sponsor my blog during the month of March

If you are interested in doing a sponsor swap for March please email me at chrissythomas04@yahoo.com or leave a comment on this post. =)

We All Need A Little Motivation Sometimes

Happy Sunday!  I hope everyone is having a great weekend.I decided that today should be about motivation and encouragement.  I know I need some extra motivation to get back on track with exercise and eating right, so maybe you might too.

Source: tumblr.com via Ayana on Pinterest

I hope this helps you as much as it has helped me so far today!

Weight Loss Progress

Hello lovelies! Can you believe we are at week 7 already in my weight loss progress updates? Yeah, me neither.

Can I just say that I am still adjusting to this new platform we know as WordPress. I have used Blogger since I started blogging so I have been used to that. So please bare with me as I figure things out around here!

This past week was a really rough one emotionally for me. We had our first appointment with the RE (fertility specialist) and while he didn’t say anything I wasn’t already expecting him to say, I still had a hard time actually hearing him say the words. So this week instead of getting really serious and cracking down on my calories and exercise – you know, since I am supposed to lose 30-40 pounds in 3 months I haven’t exercised hardly at all and my eating has been awful. Ugh.

I gained a pound this week and have no inches lost, but it’s my own fault and I take full responsibility for making poor choices when it comes to being active and eating. I am making a decision to do better this week. So hopefully the scale will reflect that next weekend!

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Weight loss – 0
Inches loss – 0

Tomorrow, the family is off to the Train park in Scottsdale to have a picnic and enjoy the gorgeous day we are supposed to have.  I’m sure we will walk around the park and play in addition to riding the train and the carousel.  What are you planning for tomorrow?  Don’t forget to take time to do something healthy for yourself!

Furbaby Friday

I’ve decided to link up with the ever fabulous Mrs. Monologues today for Furbaby Friday!

My furbaby, Summer Grace Elizabeth Thomas. Summer is a pure-bred Boxer who is almost 2 years old. Her birthday is coming up next month! Last year for her 1st birthday we got her a doggie cookie from the specialty pet store. This year I am totally getting her a doggie Sprinkles cupcake!

She thinks she’s the Queen of the backyard, clearly.

Waiting for her girl to get out of school, she’s so excited to see Hannah!

Watching Mama do her hair and makeup..mama make me prettiez too?

I laugh every time I see this picture. I love that snarly face!

This was taken shortly after we had first gotten her. She loves to snuggle Daddy and her girl.

I love my Summer baby ♥

The Nail Files

The Nail Files

I am linking up with Tara and Vicki once again for The Nail Files! This is one of my favorite link-ups because I love love love nail polish and manicures. This week has been a bit crazy for me so I just finished my manicure this morning so I’m a little late with my post this week. But here we go!

I used Sally Hansen Xtreme wear in Twisted Pink and the Sally Hansen Salon Effects strips in Wild Child with Essie top coat

I was surprised how easy the strips were to use and I absolutely LOVE the look of them!! I just hope they last longer than a day or two, so we shall see!

Friday Confessional…

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I Confess…I couldn’t sleep to save my life last night. I don’t know if it is the sty on my eye or my allergies or the fact I just couldn’t get comfortable but I had the worst time trying to sleep last night. So I got up when Sean got up to go to work at 5 am. Boo. This is going to make for a very long boring day.

I Confess…I haven’t worked out like I should since my doctors appointment on Tuesday. It’s a control thing. He told me I need to double my efforts so I stop all together. Yep. That’s helpful. Sheesh.

I Confess…I have a couple of facial piercings that I have been considering taking out if it will help me land a job. I love my piercings though and don’t want to take them out!

I Confess…I usually think I’m gonna die halfway through my workouts, but when I finish them I feel amazing and so proud of myself. I set these goals for myself like doing 47 minutes of yoga and strength training first thing in the morning. I start off slow and work up to a peak and then cool back down to finish over the course of those 47 minutes. So when I am at the peak of the workout usually during my second plank I feel like I am gonna collapse and die…and when I don’t I’m amazed. Then once I have finished the second downward dog I know I am in the home-stretch so I can’t give up now. That is a great feeling.

I Confess…I have been seeing my dream car everywhere now that I had it for that one day last week. All these people out there driving around in my dream car and rubbing it in my face that I don’t have it yet…that’s not very nice people! 😉

I Confess…This is my 500th post!! Go me!

Confession is good for the soul, so go link up your own confessions with Mamarazzi!

Processing…

So I’ve decided that the hardest part of going through all this infertility stuff is realizing that I am the problem. I am the thing that has been preventing us from having a second baby for all these years. Now, granted I can’t control the fact that I have PCOS, but I can control (or at least try to control) my weight gain/loss. Is it harder to control weight when you have PCOS, yes definitely. You gain extra weight because of it and you have to try twice as hard as the next person to take it off. But I shouldn’t have let that be an excuse for so long.

I’ve really been thinking about what the DR said the other day and while he is right about a few things I also think that because he doesn’t know me, had never met me before, has never seen my previous medical records that some of what he was saying were assumptions on his part and that is what pisses me off. I’m overweight, yes. Anyone who looks at me can see that. However I have said it before and I will say it again that just because you are thin doesn’t make you healthy just the same, being overweight doesn’t make you unhealthy (totally).

I workout almost everyday for more than 2 hours. I am very active. I count calories and watch what I am eating to make sure that I am making healthy choices vs just what’s quick and easy. I do not have any weight related health issues like diabetes, high blood pressure or things that are typically associated with overweight people. I am healthier than a lot of people half my size or less. But because you can see my size it is assumed that I sit around all day long eating cookies and ice cream and just being lazy.

That makes me want to scream!! Am I making progress on my weight loss, yes slowly but surely I am. But I feel like it’s not happening fast enough for anyone else to see the outside progress I am making. I know that I see changes in my body and people who are close to me can see the changes, but I feel like for everyone else they just look at me and see my size and make all of their judgments about me right there without digging any further and that bothers me, a lot.

So I’m trying to figure out what I can do differently to make my workouts more effective, what I can change in my diet to fuel my body better. I have a really good friend who is going to school to be a nutrionist and she is already a yoga instructor and personal trainer. She has agreed to help me come up with a meal plan and workout to get things heading in the right direction faster. I am so grateful for my friends and family who are so supportive and encouraging to me. I know it would be so much harder if I didn’t have a great support system, so to all my friends and family THANK YOU!!! If any of my readers find yourself in a similar position but don’t have the support system, send me an email or leave me a comment and I will be happy to support you and encourage you! ♥