Pass It Forward

I am so so super excited to be part of this new project, Pass it Forward brought to us by Ashley of The Shine Project!

Pass It Forward was designed to get people to do little things, everyday, that makes an impact on the community around them. Pass it Forward is designed around a card. Each card is given a unique ID number. Lets say we’re at McDonalds, and I decide to pay for the person behind me in the drive through. I’d give the cashier the card, and tell them to pass it along to the next car when the give them the food that has been paid for. I then go home and log into the website that was on the card, and find my unique ID number. I log into it, and add my information… My first name, city, and a description of what I did….Let’s say the person behind me was you, you would pass it forward to someone else, and then would go home and do the same thing. From the very beginning, you will be able to track where your card goes, and how many people you affect just by doing one simple act of kindness.

I think this project is so great and will have the potential to really impact people’s lives. Everyone gets so involved in what they personally have going on that we often forget about other people who might be going through something that is bigger than anything we have ever had to deal with and maybe, just maybe paying for their gas or groceries or even just a coffee will be the thing that let’s them know they are not forgotten or alone. That might be the very thing that gets them through that tough time.

Thank you Ashley for letting me be part of the launch of this project!!

Processing…

So I’ve decided that the hardest part of going through all this infertility stuff is realizing that I am the problem. I am the thing that has been preventing us from having a second baby for all these years. Now, granted I can’t control the fact that I have PCOS, but I can control (or at least try to control) my weight gain/loss. Is it harder to control weight when you have PCOS, yes definitely. You gain extra weight because of it and you have to try twice as hard as the next person to take it off. But I shouldn’t have let that be an excuse for so long.

I’ve really been thinking about what the DR said the other day and while he is right about a few things I also think that because he doesn’t know me, had never met me before, has never seen my previous medical records that some of what he was saying were assumptions on his part and that is what pisses me off. I’m overweight, yes. Anyone who looks at me can see that. However I have said it before and I will say it again that just because you are thin doesn’t make you healthy just the same, being overweight doesn’t make you unhealthy (totally).

I workout almost everyday for more than 2 hours. I am very active. I count calories and watch what I am eating to make sure that I am making healthy choices vs just what’s quick and easy. I do not have any weight related health issues like diabetes, high blood pressure or things that are typically associated with overweight people. I am healthier than a lot of people half my size or less. But because you can see my size it is assumed that I sit around all day long eating cookies and ice cream and just being lazy.

That makes me want to scream!! Am I making progress on my weight loss, yes slowly but surely I am. But I feel like it’s not happening fast enough for anyone else to see the outside progress I am making. I know that I see changes in my body and people who are close to me can see the changes, but I feel like for everyone else they just look at me and see my size and make all of their judgments about me right there without digging any further and that bothers me, a lot.

So I’m trying to figure out what I can do differently to make my workouts more effective, what I can change in my diet to fuel my body better. I have a really good friend who is going to school to be a nutrionist and she is already a yoga instructor and personal trainer. She has agreed to help me come up with a meal plan and workout to get things heading in the right direction faster. I am so grateful for my friends and family who are so supportive and encouraging to me. I know it would be so much harder if I didn’t have a great support system, so to all my friends and family THANK YOU!!! If any of my readers find yourself in a similar position but don’t have the support system, send me an email or leave me a comment and I will be happy to support you and encourage you! ♥